englishredrose

englishredrose @ 2009-01-02T20:39:00

2009-01-02T20:39:53Z

OMG!!!

How much turkey did you have this christmas?

haha! Not that it matters, was all a giant yummy fest of delicious foods cooked by my family members and actually made by Tesco. Thanks supermarkets!!

For once I am actually abandoning my Britney stage, do not get me wrong I do love her but she's not ready for a comeback - call me when you need more enthusiasm in your dances!! OOOOHHH! Ouch :P MY BAD.

But at the moment i'm loving the edgier celebs. Pink, I mean hello... she is awesome! I have short hair as well now! apart from my natural redhead colour is on show now!! must dye it! As well as this for some odd reason i'm loving Jodie Marsh, she's just simply herself!

Predictions for '09!!

I think this year... that the emo phase will fade a wee bit. Sorry but just got a feeling. A very well known writer or actor will pass away. A new mental illness will be discovered. A few more bad storms, hurricanes and what not!
I will also say that relationships will increase due to people feeling vulnerable to a shocking discovery that will be made as well as the declining in the Worlds Economy. Oh yeah and got a feeling something bad will happen in Asia. :S I'm just saying!

UPDATE ON MY LIFE
I have recently discovered that I'm still on edge about my relationship. I know. Suckish!
And that i'm going skiing in Feb. (Missing 14th Feb :S) Meant to get some work experience with a clothing line... Keep your fingers crossed - I will keep you updated. This year... is going to be a GOOD year. Despite what people think!

And obv my birthday on May 1st!!! WOOP! Then seeing Pink live in London 4th May. So that will be my birthday weekend!

Ermmm what else?? That's about it.

Love Blogging,

English x x x x x x x x x x

Soooooo Pissed off!

2008-12-06T17:56:32Z

OMG I actually hate my life!!

I'm so pissed off, it's unreal. My friends have completely ignored me, they say they're all busy and I'm always putting in the effort to talk to them. And they don't give a shit!!

I won't see my boyfriend for aaages.

My Dad does not pay attention to how much effort I put into things.

I have no money because my bloody part time job, won't give me a full time job.

I'm bloody suicidal. I hate everyone around this area of where i live. I hate EVERYTHING!

I'm going to have to bring myself to purge, any suggestions on how to make it easier?!

In Pain.

English x

Friendless...

2008-12-04T23:41:12Z

Dear All,

Ok, cos i'm not at college anymore. I have hardly any friends! I'm seriously struggling with not eating! I'm filling myself up like a fat pig!!! I sicken myself! What do i do?!?

I have noone to help me and support me!! HELP!

English x X x

Don't Panic!

2008-12-03T11:22:05Z

I didn't dump him!

I spoke to him about the shit that's going on... and we spoke a lot.

I love him too much. I miss him so very much right now.

However, at his we ate the worst crappiest foods! So can you imagine how shitty i feel!? x

englishredrose @ 2008-11-28T08:39:00

2008-11-28T09:01:55Z

I <3 a new day.

Yay! It's a new day, which means I can start from scratch again.

The Plan:

Only drink water.
If seriously starving and cannot cope, eat one apple.
Sit-Ups while watching TV.

Meant to be seeing boyfriend today. I mean, I saw him yesterday - isn't that enough? Something really bad is going on and it's driving me nuts. There's a bizarre tension that I can't get over. He's at uni, and complains that I'm doing fuck all at the moment. But he does not understand, that this will be him next year, when he gets out of uni! I'm just experiencing it earlier, because i'm following my dream, very shortly. He's right I am. But he's telling me what to do with my life as well as controlling me. If I think there's issues, which I do. I tell him (over text - bad idea i know!) But then we try to discuss it later on... and he blames me! It is ALWAYS my fault! "You're just picking a fight." "It's because you're not doing anything". "Stop thinking!"

Well, I'm thinking... and maybe it's time. Should I ~~dump~~ him?

I'm going to start packing my bag now... Just need someone that understands me!

I will update you on what happens.

Lots of Love

English
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

englishredrose @ 2008-11-27T21:23:00

2008-11-27T21:24:18Z

I'M SO FUCKING FAT!!!!!

Getting into this...

2008-11-27T21:19:36Z

My life is going all BLAAHHHH!

I'm not attending school/ college whatever you wanna call it! Meant to be getting a full time job! Ruddy Credit Crunch!
I have binged all day - so tempted to purge!
I'm having doubts about my relationship.
Got to go to a black tie dinner next week and need to dramatically loose weight and buy a stunning dress to fit in with these rich kids!
Mum has dissapeared from my life again.
While my dad has fun and games in Madrid for "work!"
I need new mates, cos mine have buggered off!! Not giving a shit!

Tada! Sorry to bore you! x x x x

About me...

2008-11-27T21:03:45Z

The Personals

Age: 17
Weight: 9 St
Highest Weight: 9 St
Lowest Weight: 7 St 5
Goal: 7 - 6 St
Fave Food: Celery
Fave Drink: Red Bull
Fave Exercise: Running
Thinspo: That girl in my head.
Where do you slip up? When travelling, or after a run.
When did it start? At a very young age...
Why did it start? Family, lack of control.
Does anyone know? No
Do you want help? No
Diet Pills? Yes please!
Fave Binge food: Toffee
Fave Dieting food: celery
what do you see when you look in the mirror? A disgusting fat creature!
Are you in a relationship? Yes
Do they pressure you to be thin? No, he's the one that gauges in front of me!!
Are you depressed? Yes, when i'm faking that i'm happy!
Do you self harm? used to.
Ever tried to commit suicide? yes.
Been to a psychologist? Yes, a few times.
Fave Song? Ask me again after i have Britney Spears album! lol!

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New!

2008-09-24T18:44:47Z

Hey guys - i'm new to all this. I need help. I've become fat at 9 stone ( dont know what that is in lbs!) need some new friends to give me some guidance!!! Also need friends i can trust and talk to about anything!! hehe!

Love

English